In this Memoir Marjorie Meret-Carmen chronicles her painful 10 year journey through Benzo dependence and withdrawal. While caring for her husband during his long decline and eventual demise from dementia, she was having trouble sleeping and having panic attacks during the day. Her doctor perscribed Ativan/Lorazepam (a Benzodiazepine) to help her. This Memoir chronicles Marjories's journey through the labyrinth of dependence, grief, the agony of withdrawal, and recovery. She bares her soul with journal entries, poetry, and confessions of hopelessness. As Marjorie began to recover, she decided to act on the knowledge and experience she gained to bring benzodiazepine prescribing practices to the forefront of public awareness. She organized The International Benzodiazepine Symposium, in September 2017, where benzodiazepine experts, addiction specialists, and medical practitioners from around the world came to find solutions to this age old pharmaceutical travesty that has compromised millions of peoples lives around the world.